Tears

Am so sad like every thing is a twist for me I feel like giving up I want to kill my self I swear I really want to do it am so sad..like today by 7:3 my university started suspending people the name is covenant university never let anyone you know come here its a horrible place I sear I hate this school. ..the suspended my crush ade the one that pecks me everyday and we always have our moment this mother fuckers had the guts to suspend him I want to cry like mad buh the tears are not coming my closest friend got suspended too his girl has been crying on my shoulder I can't take it anymore we have been enduring their shit buh the have done something unbearable like ty is my best friend buh we had issues last week and we haven't been talking he kissed my forehead yesterday and said goodbye he saw the list before me and he said his mum said he won't come back I can't live without him he makes me laugh everyday am PMSing  he his everything to me now he is gone maybe 4 weeks am not sure buh I don't think I will take this shit from them this goddamit school is making me puke I hate this place and I already miss ade he didn't peck me today and I have been trying to hold it in for how long God...I don't know if I can hold it in I like him too much and I miss him like mad.......