Even as we all start a new life, from when we deem it right, we should learn to never forget the old lives we thought we lived, our dreams are stuck in an hour glass waiting for the time to be up to disappear for ever, but we fight each day to make sure that we fulfill our dream

Old and New

 I believe that, even though we change our appearance,deep down we know we are still the same, a building constructed by the Egyptians before christ, could look old to others, but instead our modern day is just asthetically different, in ways that we should know that our old self  will always be inside us

All things that take place in our lives, are predestined to put us on the right track,I listen and learn to fight my way through life, we all should do that,our old days will always remain in us to create the new 

I hate my life I swear

Have u ever felt like your whole world is gonna crash like there is no love in the world like your whole body is left behind but your soul and mind wanders the earth in different direction..well that's how I fell right now....I have loved a person again buh this time he didn't even look at me like the way I looked at him..He gave another girl a heart where he holds the key to round his neck..its all good I said to my self....I smiled when I heard what happened I allowed my heart to contain the crash again I don't know y I never find love I search everytime I always think I have it buh I never find love it never happened to me...its like my life wasn't ,want to be like I wasn't supposed to exist like my whole world is a false every time I look for it it never comes it doesn't even knock at my door at all ever since I came here I have been heart broken twice like everything always goes wrong for Me everytime....I hate this life I have where nothing happens good for me....yes I likem him alot..buh anytime I fall for a person I end up crashing y heart over and over again....I have made up my mind I am never go on a let any one near my heart again I swear never.....

I don't have much time tho when I get athe time I will use it to focus on my blog full  time

Wow

Hey guys..sorry I haven't posted any shit.....am really sorry got cush up with school. ...any was a lot has happened since I last posted....to begin with  I have gone through shit..and I have made my way out....For starters I ended my crush on ade....and I started a new one I guess I hate the fact that love never finds me even when u want to wait it never comes to me I always look for it and I have noticed that all the love I have searched for I never get to have them I don't know his name tho..buh there is just something about him that I haven't seen I any other boy...my school has been making people worry with their expulsion and all the crap they have been doing buh as u will know it we are all trying g to survive.....I have some kinda advice when  guy doesn't smile or talk when one girl is present u know something is up.....ade started this shit. ..With Damol....buh she got sick nd went home he never laughed or smiled bow she's back and he won't close his mouth nd that the guy I crushed on right silly me

Life

There is this stuff I have with life it goes like this "life is a bitch" if you re out there about to commit sucide and you just online checking to see if there is any thing that makes sense that did make you to stop,  well am here and am telling you that everything in life was made or designed to happen the way it did we have to go through somethings to survive life no matter how bad we feel we need to stand our ground that tell life to its face you are a bitch, am going through stuffs in my life right now.... yesterday I felt like giving up I got crack and I was gonna take it off limit so that I could go to the beyond buh when I got to my room in the dorm I couldn't do it once I took a look at my family picture yes life is a bitch but yesterday I said No No I said to life I won't do it and I threw my crack away I love the fact that something are getting better buh I did like for anyone to drop a comment and if u feel ok with it tell me about your experience.

Dignity

Okay today am here in this mother fucking asshole shitty excuse for a school I hate this place I swear all the rules are suffocating me I can't handle all this shit anyway I found out that my friends and my Mr peck me always didn't go home the were joking with me I love them alot expecially Mr pecker how are u guys tho anyway I need to talk about the stupidity so, e girls possess  am not trying na insult no one buh am just saying like in my school a known playermade out with two best friends told them he loved them buh he actually didn't instead of the moron to get angry and avenge their dignity the attack each other claiming one of the other seduced her boyfriend a sick disease girls posses a very sad story, I swear I felt like slapping them right there like am shocked and guess what it's the guy I told u guys about the idiotic stupid fool that always smirked at me and checked me out he was right there during their fight buh the girls were blocking the way and am an architecture student that was late for class, without giving a fucked I got in he middle said excuse and passed they all looked at me buh I walked back to them pulled them apart then I called them fools I pointed to him I told them since you guys are acting like dogs go and bite him they looked at me confused then I spelt it out for them,you can't just fight each other after u have known urselve for so long over a fucked up Nigga that obviously never liked you guys buh played you both so tell me now why the fuck are u fighting each other instead of avenging your dignity........and killing that fool over there he kept looking at me...I smiled and ran to class
P.s....I was late already

Tears

Am so sad like every thing is a twist for me I feel like giving up I want to kill my self I swear I really want to do it am so sad..like today by 7:3 my university started suspending people the name is covenant university never let anyone you know come here its a horrible place I sear I hate this school. ..the suspended my crush ade the one that pecks me everyday and we always have our moment this mother fuckers had the guts to suspend him I want to cry like mad buh the tears are not coming my closest friend got suspended too his girl has been crying on my shoulder I can't take it anymore we have been enduring their shit buh the have done something unbearable like ty is my best friend buh we had issues last week and we haven't been talking he kissed my forehead yesterday and said goodbye he saw the list before me and he said his mum said he won't come back I can't live without him he makes me laugh everyday am PMSing  he his everything to me now he is gone maybe 4 weeks am not sure buh I don't think I will take this shit from them this goddamit school is making me puke I hate this place and I already miss ade he didn't peck me today and I have been trying to hold it in for how long God...I don't know if I can hold it in I like him too much and I miss him like mad.......

Tired

Well I have been writing test people that's y I haven't posted an update on my latest mission well I have a guy now more like a friend am planning on  friend zoning him buh am feeling sad for him I think he likes me buh I cant seem to get a particular so, e one out of my head I need suggestions tho...Make a long post tomorow later

fear

my greatest achievement is not having a boy friend in cu I actually love my course mates now the are fun to be with buh it better than before.....I prefer them now than before like ryt now the joke now is that am married to 4 guys my crush involved buh u know life never turns out to be like what we expect or want it suckling and we can't say why, buh like u know the asshole that keeps betraying my heart is no more not dead tho...I actually don't see him again and even when I see him I avoid him alot because he caused me tooo much pain...on the issue with my latest game well I think today when  someone called me Igene emem that's my crush name and mine I dint flinch like I used too buh when I said adekeye emem that's my friend that always peeks me I skipped a heart beat he refreshed my soul with his smiles buh I think he got angry when  the called me igene emem...and he ignored me anyway I won't push it with him I don't want to turn out as an obsessive person

$lut

Today is Sunday right I did expect that I will be happy buh no this university has it out to get me you did think I did something wrong buh no I didn't do any shit.....my mum came to see me she calmed me down I would have unleash hell on this school after service I saw that bastard again this time with another girl the asshole of a dick from a slut was making out in the chapel toilet with another slut buh this time the fucked up Nigga was making out with my friend I held it in walked in the toilet used it and I left because I couldn't handle shit well...I pretended like it didn't get to me buh it did she saw me and she smiled she knew I was in love with him nah was now the have it to get me for no shitty reason I do t give two fucks I keep saying to myself...well I started  my hunt for the perfect guy I will write later on my list of a perfect gentledick...I went on a date with some Nigg a that put fake pictures on IG he is an asshole well he looked ugly as fuck and here I was die g for his pictures according to him he is using his bro account I was so pissed well I told him to go fuck himself...Other than that I feel depressed and sad how could the do these to me if u want to see me or my hot face and imagine y people derive joy from hurt g me check me on IG emem_____

finding myself some deep shit called love

I am just here right now wondering how to find some kinda love in this crazy college well let see..I figured I want to start by meeting with boys in the lecture theatre let see how I find love....the journey begins

pissed

fucked up world filled with some mother fuckers well am pissed that what it is am fucking pissed I saw my asshole of a crush making out with desperate bitch guess what I wanted to kill her what the fuck buh then I met my course mates its like they knew I was pissed they actually cheered me up I actually went for a trade fair, it was cool until spoiler alert decided to show his useless self he actually smirked at me like he did it for me to see well am gonna kill the crush for sure, anyway my course mates helped even tho the didn't know, I saw my hun ade well I met have some kinda feel I g s for him buh am not sure about it he perked me today on my neck I felt thing buh I kept it to my self it's not the first time tho he has peaked me before on my forehead and my cheeks playfully in the studio buh I felt good n better when he did he made me smile when I wanted to smash rocked on that bastard face

surprise

Am a very dry person somethings can make some certain people go crazy,I may have some kind of weird feelings for one of my friends he is a very out going person fun crazy and sweet,his name is ade am shocked too I dint see hi  in class yesterday and I missed him I feel bad tho,cos I don't think he notices me like that he is kinda the ladies man,anyway its ok just wanted it let it out

wow...I am practically enjoying my own....there's a boy I met recently...he has always been there I just never felt like checking him out....he is cute actually a model and u need to see his cute picture in IG really nice stuff buh actually he has Ben checking me out recently and I couldn't stand it no more so I stopped going to places that I would most lily see him buh  yesterday I was coming back from class with a friend and we met at a crossroad he started walking slowly and I told my friend to slow down buh she wanted to walk pass them buh I didn't want to,he kept looking back at me and I couldn't handle it she was laughing at me like I looked funny buh she didn't stop, he still kept looking at me I was really feeling weird I couldn't stand him his stares where doing stuffs to me that I couldn't handle, he smiled at me once and I look to the side like he wasn't talking to me I couldn't take it no more so I told my friend to walk really slow so that the could go far, it's like he read my mi d he kept walking really slow and I was really pissed it was annoying me like shut,  I couldn't think when I saw his smile I froze actually really did, I smile at my friend and she stopped laughing it was like she felt pity or sad for me, I couldn't tell when I finally got my hall she told me some thing that made me feel
pained, she said 'Paul has a girlfriend and he's the schools badboy' I put up an I don't give a fuck face buh I was feeling really bad, so I walked away and when I got to my room I realize that for a second I forgpt about who I was the girl that anyone could use the girl that always gives her all the girl that was useless I pitied myself, buh this time around I feel a strong will to shied myself from self pity and be the kind of person that wouldn't give a fuck.

hehehe

There where times when I felt like my whole heart would break, the first time they dropped me here I totally lost it I didn't talk to nobody I felt alone I wanted to be left alone, buh that didn't happen I met cool people in my course at first the knew I had pain within me I was dark I felt alone I wanted to give up buh I couldnt I couldn't just end my life because someone left me shattered...I picked myself up and started again buh this time,I won't let anyone see the real me the can't k ow me for who I am, cos if the do the will use me the way I was used before I was too nice too cm and that's why people take advantage of me,buh this time am slowly learning how to be harsh and make sure that no one goes near my heart without putting up a fight